Paranoid & trying to quit

Cypress · #1 05-30-2008, 03:25 PM

Been smoking for about 12 years now and have taken class A drugs a few times when I was younger. A cocktail of Class A drugs combined with pot caused me to become delusional. I had been smoking a lot of pot (about 5 a day) leading up to this life changing event. I suffered the loss of my best friend as well which may have contributed to the psychotic episode... I was trapped in mental hell for a few months and had to go on medication to try and ease the confusion and paranoia.

I stopped smoking religiously for a couple of years, the paranoia eased but the conspiracy theories I perceived continued (but I was coping with life)... BUT every time I smoke a pot, my paranoia intensifies and the conspiracy grows and becomes very real at times. I have quit jobs, shut family off and lost friends because of the paranoia. In fact I've lost a few years of my life, sitting on the sofa analyzing everything and fitting it into my conspiracies...

Anyway, I need to turn my life around and leave the pot behind, it's reduced me to half the man I used to be and I am worried that if I lose my wife I will never find companionship again because I am a paranoid... I need to stop smoking pot if I am to have any hope of living some kind of a fulfilling life.

I'm struggling though, it's too easy to get hold of and I can always find justification for getting some even though I know it is doing my mental state some serious damage.

Does anyone have any tips on kicking it for good?

bud free · #2 06-02-2008, 10:00 PM

wish i had a magic trick 'cause i would use it myself, LOL however as a mental health professional i have to say that if smoking makes you more paranoid i would try to find a therapist i could trust and get into a group situation, NA or AA or such. doesn't work for everyone but it really helps not to feel all alone out there. good luck

Swastik · #3 07-10-2008, 07:41 AM

If you are addicted to anything it is in your hands only to leave it or not?

Your will power must be strong to leave some addiction. Have some confidence that you can do it. And then see the result.

jenny · #4 12-06-2008, 07:16 AM

I feel very sad for you Cypress knowing your health. But you can regain your health if you really wish. It depends on you.

Acly · #5 12-23-2008, 10:51 AM

You have to be mentally strong to stop those bad habits.

jenny · #6 12-26-2008, 06:10 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Acly

You have to be mentally strong to stop those bad habits.

Yes, Acly. Cypress needs to be mentally strong.