Recoveredcrackhead@yahoo.com

[larrylive]

Well hello to all,

I don't know if that "title" is legal, here in the land of forums, but I continue to search for answers. So.....
If you are a crackhead,recovered crackhead or somewhere in between please rememeber my e-mail...RECOVEREDCRACKHEAD@YAHOO.COM
Although it is a misnomer(I am not recovered) it is a goal and a desire.
And being that we all may forget where we've been, ie;forums..I thought that might be an easy address to remember.
So please write me and tell me your story, recovered or not....what works and/or what hasn't worked. I am compiling all the info I can on crack addiction and recovery methods and I hope and pray that one day I will beat this addiction and share the good news of how with all.

Best Regards,
Larrylive

PS...would you believe this re-invigoration is due to a person about to become a crackhead. He has only been smoking a few months, but circumstance would indicate a quick spiral to the hell we hate. Fortunately for me, he is a "decommisioned" doctor, with a major in chemistry and a minor in psychology. He has also agree to help me with my"research/book", although while under the influence. Wish us luck.

[larrylive]

Well as is usual in the land of crack addiction, I am about to become homeless again. Having been jobless for a year, my addiction has grown worse. If one considers daily use worse than the once a week when I was employed.
As for the person mentioned in the P.S. of the last post, he lost everything, checked into rehab, is living in a half-way house doing outpatient and stopped by last week to get high. He also offered to pay my rent if he could stay with me. (Hey....I could sit back & smoke crack for the rest of my life, what more could a person ask for.) (That's Sarcasm)

Regards,
Larrylive

[lowster11]

Keep the faith brother!!

[larrylive]

Let's see, I didn't review my post so just to recap......
2.5 wks ago I began intensive outpatient at the only local OP-TC.
Well......being that I still use, I have been refered to a higher level of treatment ie; inpatient. to which I have graciously declined. Not to mention the fact that from the very beginning, at my intake interview, I adamently made clear I would not be available for inpatient. Now even though I am on my third counselor, the only time anyone mentions crack is when I have +pee.
So my take on this is I am being punished for their failure. I mean Ichecked in because I use, and obviously the doing so was not the majic cure. I fail to see the logic in that sitting in a room for a couple hours a day would remove the cravings(oops...no offence to the fellowships) I realize there is some work to be done, and I am fully committed to doing it, but at least I realize this is an on going process and won't happen majicly, overnite.
(oh please let some one pick up on that)
Not to mention....if the definition of Insanity is, doing the same thing over and over again, but expecting different results, could someone please explain TC's and rehabs.
So now it's off to prepare my case/arguements for Mondays presentation.
And just incase your unsure, I would love to remain in treatment, and I hope, wish, dream, pray, and work for sobriety every day. I believe it's coming, but God's revelations have not yet fully manifested, perhaps........

[larrylive]

Let's see,how shall I begin...got out of jail 2 wks ago and immeidiately started smoking crack, but it was given to me, I didn't go looking for it until I got money. Kinda sucks, I had 4 months clean and fully intended on continueing in the right direction. I still do. Unfortunatelly circumstances keep me stuck in the middle of the war zone, and I can't seem to resist the free offers, oh hell I can't resist the one's I pay for.
So I am trying to get into a program, going to meetings and half-heartedly looking for a new place to live. If I can find storage for mystuff I would jump into rehab. That seems to be a complicated issue that I catch a lot a of grief about. Seems those who have lost everything want others to do the same. But I have managed to keep/aquire many valuable objects during my addiction. Most have some sentimental attatchment and I will not lose (any more) without a fight.
Speaking of losses....My Mom passed away while I was in jail, and that really sucked. You see I was convicted of a crime that was more a matter of "guilt by assotiation". But now at the tender age of 46 I have done my first (and last ?) stint in jail and I am a convicted felon. But I never got a chance to explain to my Mom that I only smoked the money, I didn't steal it.
And now I have 2 days clean and alot of work to do.
If your clean, please stay that way, if not, I understanding.
God be with us all.
Regards,
Larry